15. Frisson
Frisson 1. A sudden and intense feeling of excitement 2. A shudder caused by a thrill It is hilarious looking back at this and seeing all the free time I squandered. I have a 2 month old baby and a 2 year old right now and I'm losing my goddamn mind. I miss writing. I rarely feel a frisson of any good vibes or excitement. Life is a fog of sleep deprivation and drudgery. The house is disgusting and enraging to me. The other day, seeking some excitement or maybe an escape, I ate 5 mg. of a weed candy and lost my damn mind. I should know better. I've been paralyzed by fear from that shit so many times. I need to stop eating weed candy. I scared my daughter. I thought the Russians were doing an aerial attack. There's a restored B-52 that's been flying really low and it freaked me the fuck out. We live by 3 airports, go figure. And there's an air force base not too far. But why did it have to keep flying over our neighborhood? I kept hearing screams and shots in the dist